Haunted at Night

All and all, since I've started working at the studio it's been a great experience. I've had some hard days, but during those days I just remind myself that my job is DANCING; at which point any negative thoughts promptly disappear, and I slap myself in the face. I mean a little over a month ago I was picking up after people and cleaning slosh buckets (and we all know nothing labeled as "slosh" can be pretty, right?), so seriously I should be nothing but grateful for this change in employment.

Not only am I free of slosh, I'm learning so much there too! It's just like being back in school: I have a dance session in the morning, then a meeting where I always fight to keep my eyes open, then lunch, then more training, usually an hour lecture on either the history of the dances or procedures and policies, and then I get ready for my classes that day (going over "patterns" aka combinations of steps) and then I have to teach everything I just learned with the confidence of the "professional ballroom dancer" that I am (oh and make lots of cheesy jokes and smile and get the student to enjoy their lesson...satisfaction guaranteed!). It's been a challenge and in some cases I've been pushing myself out of my comfort zone (teaching an intro class to a group of about 25 plus strangers).

All of these changes and challenges are welcomed, but there is one side of this job that is not welcomed and that I want out IMMEDIATELY.

Dreams. My waking hours have turned out to be less stressful than the time that I am at rest! What the hell is that about? All night long I dream about what I did that day, what I need to do the next day, and what I need to learn and haven't really gotten yet. There is so much stress in my sleep! Last night I would force myself awake and talk myself back into a sleep where dancing was no where to be seen....except it would creep back in before I knew it! I wish there was some kind of pill you could take for dreamless nights; all I want is for soothing, all encompassing darkness in my sleep...is that so much to ask?

I know I'm probably not alone in these stressful work related dreams, but what do I do about it? I mean ALL NIGHT LONG, come on people!