Boyfriends...

...are good for smacking some sense into you, even if it hurts a little to hear it.

As you can see from my last post, I've done a pretty good job of putting myself, and most importantly someone else, in a pretty tough spot. I have a BIG tendency to push things off. Bills, doctor appointments, car repairs, anything that makes me frown and itch my eyes in worry, gets pushed back and pushed back until a small little problem (that could have been easily resolved) snow balls into major stresses. This is something I'll probably always have to work on, and I think it's more important now that it ever was before, because now people other than myself are affected. I don't want to be someone you can't rely on, and right now I think that's exactly who I am. I need to fix this.

I talked to my boyfriend this morning, hoping to hear that he'd be on my side to quit my current studio, and work on getting another job. His response was that 1. Good luck finding another job right now (which is true) 2. You can't quit a job before you get one to replace it (yeah, that's true too) and 3. You'd be quitting a job for negatives in exchange for another job which would, seeing how the other job would most likely be in a restaurant, come with another list of negatives which would probably be worse (.....good point). What he didn't mention, but what I thought about after hanging up with him, was that I've put a lot of work into the studio I'm at now, and even though it's hard sometimes (and smelly) I don't want to give up.

My manager said they'd be willing to work something out with the other studio, and I'm hoping they can; then the negative situation I've put everyone into (including myself), turns into a positive. All I can try to do at this point is learn from this, and be smarter and more considerate when the next obstacle comes my way.